Oh, life

Life is so annoying sometimes.

Can I get an "Amen?"

It's so amazingly awesome in one aspect and overwhelmingly crappy in another. 

I haven't blogged in a REALLY long time. The reason I haven't blogged in a really long time is because of one thing. Everything I type sounds like I'm a pessimistic jerk. And no one wants to be around a pessimistic jerk let alone spend anytime whatsoever reading their negativity. And I know there are a lot of people who have problems that are more serious than mine. But ya know what? This ain't their blog so I can write whatever I wanna'. And today is the day I have nothing else to do but play guitar and spend time on the internet. So...hellllllloooo, blogger.  

So lets make some lists. Two lists. One list for the amazing and one list for the crappy. And I think I'll throw in some cute pictures of kiddies here and there for kicks and giggles. Alright? alright. 

SOME OF THE AMAZINGLY AWESOME:

*Little Tavin is a beast on his bike. No training wheels needed. 

*Tavin started Kindergarten and loves every bit of it. His favorite friend is "the cool girl" in grade three who sits with him on the bus coming home. She reads him stories or they create their own funny story based on pictures in her books. SO CUTE He talks about her everysingleday.

*Eylee loves princesses. Eylee dresses up like princesses. Eylee pretends she is a princess. Eylee will only wear pjs that fit the following criteria 1.has a princess on it 2.is a nightgown 3. contains mostly pink We currently only have two sets of pjs that fit this criteria, a trip to Target or Walmart is necessary.

* I got a haircut! This is a big deal. It only happens once a year. 

*Ben is in his fourth and last year of dentistry. Yes, we can see the light at the end of the tunnel. No, I'm not excited about moving and starting my life anew somewhere else. (sorry, that was meant for the other list)

*Summer was awesome! Fall is even better (well, minus the snow days)

* I'm almost finished with this season of canning. Then I can clean my kitchen and expect it to stay that way for more than a few hours!

* Tavin finally received his Canadian citizenship certificate in the mail. After 1 1/2 years dealing with the government, WE GOT IT! He is the first official dual citizen of the family. Next up, Eylee's American citizenship.

* Waiting for Tavin at the bus stop has become one of my favorite times of day. It's so fun to talk to different kinds of people for 10-15 minutes. Especially the elderly, they have the best stories. (and most interesting advice on kids and views on politics)

-Now for a break filled with two super cute kids-

SOME OF THE INCREDIBLY CRAPPY: 

*Eylee is refusing to take afternoon naps and therefore becomes a crazy little person with horns and sharp teeth at around 4:00p.m. Oh, you know, right when we have to wait at the bus stop to pick Tavin up. To actually get her to lay down, I have learnt that telling her a certain pink princess dress will be returned if she doesn't at least TRY to sleep. So far, great success!

* My waffle iron died. I don't think I need to describe the kind of heartache this could cause a waffle addict. 

*It's been cold and snowy. asdlfkjdaslfkjlasfkjaslfkj! But, it should be beautiful fall weather again. (It's not that I'm not a snow person, I LOVE snow. I love snow in winter. not fall. Fall is my favorite and I hate anything that shortens my crisp sweater weather - I'm lookin' at you Jack Frost!)

* I've been trying for 10 months on getting pregnant. Depression has seeped into me and I have the hardest time dealing with it. I've been getting upset over silly things I do wrong and I find myself being too critical on me, myself and I in every way. I'm tired of people commenting on how thin I am. I wanted to be having a baby either last month or this month. I want people to make comments on how I look like I could pop at any moment. I want to have a huge belly full of a little one kicking and stretching and annoying me while I try to sleep. So please, don't ask me if I'm pregnant. I'm not. Please don't comment on my body. At all. Because right now, I completely and utterly hate my body. (Pessimistic Pam? Debbie Downer? oh yeah. But remember, this is the incredibly crappy list) But don't worry, I can hide sadness super well with witty jokes and fake smiles, so don't be scared to approach me. I'm happier with others around, as long as we don't have to talk about getting pregnant.

So there it is! A completed blog post! A little bit of sad but a whole lot of happy too. 

Oh, life, how bitter and sweet you are.

                                         -The perfect rainy day song-